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A new world opened during my internship as a production assistant at hazazaH Film & Photography. Being surrounded by film inspired me to create a series of film stills where I tried to capture emotions in a way I hadn't done before. The self-portrait series shows the feeling of being in search of something elusive: time is moving way too fast but also too slow. When I stand still for a moment, everything else rushes past me. Everything and everyone is in a hurry, deadlines must be met, future plans must be made. I want to do too much, but there aren't enough hours in a day and I can't catch my breath. On the other hand, I yearn for tomorrow, want to be ten steps ahead already, living in the future, realizing my dreams. Things can't get better fast enough than now. I feel small in an infinite space: overwhelming yet free. A tiny speck on this earth, so many lives around me, I am worth almost nothing in comparison. Who cares about me? But in some way that gives me peace, because those thoughts make it all feel less overwhelming. I can breathe again. I am enjoying and struggling, living in the present and in the future. I find my place in this constantly moving world.